You and I don’t share the same sentiments,
we never have
I like to outstare the pale stars every night before I go to sleep
and you just sink into your bed comfortably like you're weightless
like you don’t have much to carry
not much to think about
The sea’s farness doesn't seem to bother you like it bothers me
and my love for the sun doesn’t seem to make sense with this deserted city’s burning heat
but seeing him shine so brightly and still, every morning makes me feel at ease
I need its rays to govern my body to ground
or else I’d always fight to be as bright as his shining mane
shining everything - everywhere all at once
being everywhere all at once—
I need to try being everywhere all at once—
just like the sun
to find that one place that I truly love
I’ve been tirelessly trying to find that timeless place, that’ll keep me still
in time’s limitless space and I just still can’t find it
I hate it here, I hated it over there and I’ll hate where I think I won’t hate it—
it’s just the way things are
where it is someone’s hell
it's another man's paradise
and I can’t help but wonder
why all my heavens are so far away
heavens I’ll eventually get tired of
but regardless— their heavens
a place on land,
a coastal drive, a lover’s hand,
a friendship bracelet,
a swim in salty waters,
a crowded city where I can hide — a free world
Free, why are you always so far away from me?