sitting here
waiting for the time to finally feel right
for me to step out from under this parasol
and tan with you
under the wild sun
on a floral towel
on the hot sand
in paradise
feeling the heat
Arizona on ice
diluting our drinks
never thinking twice
hearing the waves
drowning our ears
crashing
washing away all our worries
relaxing
doing nothing
limbless
no ambitions
braless
nudist
feeling god’s love and everything else fucking off
I can’t keep watching you tan alone
I envy what you have and I want to lie next to you
it seems that your life has everything perfectly placed and put together for you to do what you want
you’ve got no weight to carry
no fat linings to burn
you’ve had it ribbon bowed straight out of the gatefold
and it seems that the sun will burn me rather than tan my skin into milk and honey
and i want to lie right next to you
I do
everything you have just seems very easy
but i just can’t right now
especially when the very little heat seems to affect me the most
my time will come at some point
it’s just not right now
and until that day comes
I’ll just wait here
waiting for the time to feel right
for me to step out and finally feel free
no parasol shadowing me from azure easiness or liberty
or sun
to sunbathe
next to you
my time is to come
I just know it’s just not right now
I’ll keep waiting till things feel right