Planning this shit for a week
They not believing me
Gonna try suicide
I think it's my time
Don't try to fix me
Disappointed at myself
Wish i tried harder
I'll be so happy
But i cannot i cannot
I wish i could but these thoughts won't let me
I try my best to change
3 days of happiness but it goes all to waste
Remake my whole life
Sorry for the people that i put my anger on
Dont mean to hurt you but I'm just so stressful
Wish i could learn from mistake
I'm the mistake sorry to my mom taking care of us
You were there for us
You were suicidal
I wasn't there i took you for granted
I didn't mean to
I'm just yelling at you
More crying on the bed
I wish i wasn't born
I wouldn't cause you stress
You were laying sick and i was doing nothing
Gotta say a lotta things about myself
I got lotta issues
Lotta problems
I dont even wanna try
I'm sorry i disappointed myself and you all
Especially my mom and josh and kurama
Glad i met them i met a lot of people i adore like stray demon
Cause i got shit to fix please wait for me
Sorry for disappointing you
Sorry for everything I've done
I haven't changed
My friends are getting married
I told them the same story
I've worked on but i cannot move on from myself
If i try to work on myself it can't happen
Music the only thing that I'm going far is it worth chasing after
I don't hear no one when it rains
No one else talking to me
Lost in this space put my anger out on my fucking friends
When i shouldn't
L gotta work on my fucking self
L gotta work on my fucking self