Forgive me if I'm not ready
I woke up on the other side of bed
Last night I went to sleep so early
Because I was too sad to be awake
Some days it's hard to breathe
Some other days it's not hard at all
But lately it seems like I forgot to see the point
I'm sorry if I can't go to your party
Though you don't even seem to care
But I woke up with a hole in my stomach
That's making me feel unwell
I'm sorry if I get paranoid
But I hear these voices in my head
They say "Go away, go away, go away
You're gonna end up dead"
I see you with your friends
You're so cute, you look so happy, everyone is smiling
And I'm so sad I'll never be like you
I once caught a glimpse of it
But it was just my reflection on a sunny day
I know maybe I shouldn't tell you
How I feel that much but
I'm not good at faking that I'm right
I'm so scared you end up hating me, resenting me
I'm sorry but I just can't shut up
I just can't shut up
I see you with your friends
You're so cute, you look so happy, everyone is smiling
And I'm so sad I'll never be like you
I once caught a glimpse of it
But it was just my reflection on a sunny day
I wish I was like your friends
So cute, so happy
It makes me sad 'cause I'll never be like you
I wish I was happy all the time
Maybe then it would be easy to be alive