Something died inside of me that night
when I just watched you bleed
I hope you know how much you mean
but I still have to let you know
Both of my hands are tied
and I'm sorry you had to wait so long
I could have done better if I tried
and I just can't convince myself
I'm doing better than last night
Because I just lay awake in the dark
and sat and listened to you cry
And I've never hated myself more and thats why
Something died inside of me that night
when I just watched you bleed
I hope you know how much you mean
but I still have to let you know
I'm sorry
You know how I'm feeling
because all I do is hold back and conceal things
So tell me why the fuck I'm not healing
I'm tired and I'm sick of this feeling
Like you said, I'm running away
from every problem that's just in my head
And I know they are
I held back and kept myself
from telling you everything that I should have
But you're here so far
I'll look down, to find no strength in myself
to feel alive and to try and help
I'll hold you close, our empty bodies lie together in your bed
I tried my best to help you bloom
Just like those flowers that we grew from my arms
the ones that bled
I'm sorry
You know how I'm feeling
because all I do is hold back and conceal things
So tell me why the fuck I'm not healing
I'm tired and I'm sick of this feeling
Something died inside of me that night
when I just watched you bleed
I hope you know how much you mean
but I still have to let you know