There's just so much about life that we ain't gon' ever understand
But me, give up on life ? I'll be damned!
I travel through the lands & I sacrifice my stability
My relationship, my family, the gravity
That holds me down- when I'm feeling suicidal
But underground hip hop is like my fucken bible!
They tell me I'm an "idol," enjoy my recitals
But you won't ever feel the pressure from doing what I do
Sitting writing lyrics thinking nothing's good enough
I try to write something inspirational but homie, growing up
That's all I think about when I'm bumping instrumentals
My house is made of glass but it's hard to stay gentle
My mental stability is limited. They feeling me
The crowd screams for an encore but this depression's killing me
My ability to speak my mind-
It's a gift & a curse & it's mine, oh, mine
So when I'm on the road I hope that you'll be thinkin' 'bout me
I hope that you can't even eat & you're sick without me
Coz' that's how I feel when I'm not with you
There's such little time & so much to do
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See, the pressure from progression will surely teach you some lessons
I got questions about this profession
Should my happiness be 2nd?
& my career first?
What should be the order?
I just don't know anymore. Shit's so distorted
I love my fans & I love the connections
It's a blessing knowing I'm helping people coz' that was not my intention
I was just venting. I was just 17
Tryna lace a fucken track up way out in the I.e
I would always be crying, writing lyrics everyday
Bout my brothers up in juvy, & the shit I used to slang
& how my daddy moved away, & my momma beating me
& how I just don't wanna fucken live life so I stay
Banging on these streets & tagging my graffiti
See, 5 years ago, ain't nobody wanna be me!
& now you bitches see me & now you bitches love me!
& now I'm eating steak, homie! Fuck being hungry!
So when I'm on the road I hope that you'll be thinkin' 'bout me
I hope that you can't even eat & you're sick without me
Coz' that's how I feel when I'm not with you
There's such little time & so much to do
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