[Verse 1: TV Torrance]
Be ill like the villain of the story, way I always mess up
Traumatized, man, it feels like playin' dress-up
Tortured soul, tortured mind, some time, I gotta fess up
'Bout to argue with my issues, bitch, we get it, catch up, uh
Yeah, I fuckin' cry myself to sleep, and I've got so fed up
Throw some shit in the microphone, but it's set up
Honestly, in bed all day... don't wanna get up
Tryna figure out where it all messed up, uh
Screens give me migraines, I feel like it's on fire
All I can do is sleep, but I'm not tired
Wanna write some music, but I'm fuckin' uninspired
Gеt trashed for every song, feelin' bеtter off retired, uh
Butterflies in my stomach, why I never leash it?
Will it get a zero or a hundred when they hit 'submit' ?
I'm a little damn bitch, when will my ego quit?
Soon in my life, I'll be dead in a ditch
Come find me
[Verse 2: A1TH]
Haven't felt that great in a hot minute
Don't know what it is, but I feel they are always watchin'
Bruh, I'm on mine, just is ticking' down, I just count the minutes, down to seconds
The further and further I go, I get closer to, uh, how I end this (Yeah)
I've been reachin' for perfection on a ladder
Every time I seem to get close to it, fall down then starts faster
Every time I take like two steps, I move like ten of them after
Got me thinkin' in my head like "Does this even matter?"
This shit a cycle, I'm just stuck inside this loop and stuck inside denial
Want the truth, but stray away from it when I need to clear my mind and take in
And take in that the goal is right there, it's glistenin'
And I can't seem to reach it, no matter how hard I'm tryin'
I'm setting goals for me that I know damn well I'll never reach
The circle that I'm in, I feel I'll never leave, I'll never see
The light of day I need, delectably, until I can make it out
'Cause I'm sick of hittin' repeat, it's gotten to me
I've been drowning' in my expectations without a life preserver
Every time that I think I got past, there's just another hurdle
I've tried to open up, but stay in shells like I's a turtle
I remember back to those days when I was happy, I need some reversal, uh
[Verse 3: Xerces]
[?], I be puttin' it in my [?]
A seventeen-year-old genius, you gon' hear it in my style
Just to get here took a while, just to crack a lil' smile
I be weavin' webs in verses, on my foot, I ran the miles
Yes, I value all experience, [?]
Standin' tall like [?], no mortal peak with [?]
That's a contradicting statement
All these thoughts, I put that tape in, little scared of mental weigh-in
'Cause I'm scared that it will drown me, yeah, you'll hear with what I'm sayin'
So I'm avoidin' all those talks, it turns Pandora' Box
Which is why I spit on tracks, layin' down, I love these bars
I'm the epitome of realness, don't pity me my steel wish
The cliquey groups is real, and I'm finna hit these bars, with ignite
And often times, I find myself right, walkin' down the line
And if I deviate from real space, yeah, I'm losin' all that time
Yeah, I started with the light, yeah, ideas shinin' bright
I been followin' the honey just like [?] my brain is high
Now the time is fuckin' nigh, break the chains and we will rise
'Cause tonight, beneath the stars, the revolution, fuckin' night
Uh, revolution, fuckin' night