I am sorry for not speaking up, I just couldn't find the right words how I'm breaking and bruising, all this self abusing with this voice in my head that tells me, I was never enough
Because growing up without comfort in your own skin, seems so pointless when all you do is try to please everyone that pushes you away
I tried my best to fake a smile, just so you can't see what i hide
And with the cancer blooming inside, that will someday end my fucking life
I tried to change myself, to fit in, to hide in a shell
A bastard child with no perspective, so afraid of his own reflection
And I'm just so scared that I might never be content myself
Because all I do is try to please everyone that pushes me away
The worst nightmare I ever faced was my youth
Wake up