I married into the fly trap
I sunk into suburban sand
Victimized by restlessness
Blacking out in the lion's mouth
I laughed at the cigarette stain
Inhaling black on the blinds
And cried at the digital bulb blasts on the frames of my memory
I am transparent
Denied, segregate from the obvious
Drunk and despairing sick
"I loved a girl I'll never speak to again
I spoke to a girl I never stopped loving"