I have my fate in my hands again
Thinking of how I’m a mess to him
Wondering how I am ever gonna put up with me
I have my heart in my head again
I’m lost as a child can be
Cuz I wander around my neighbourhood hoping the answer will appear in front of me
I’m a little uptight sometimes but I don’t like feeling like a trophy wife
But I’ll wait in the car at the end of the night till you arrive
You feel a little misguided cuz you misread my alliance and you still think I’m against you in every way
And I am today
And I know you’re not trying to break my heart
But you’re doing a bang up job
And I told you that I’m not trying to lose your trust
But at least I’m failing upwards
I’m all alone at my desk again
Makin sense of the mess I left for him
Thinkin that I’m the only one who thinks all these things
You feel a little bit tired cuz you’re trying not to call me a liar
And you still think I’m against you in every way
And I am today
And I know you’re not trying to break my heart
But you’re doing a bang up job
And I told you that I’m not trying to lose your trust
But at least I’m failing upwards
And I know that you second guess all of your love notes
When you see a photo of him in my yearbook
And I know that you struggle to keep all our memories safe
But I never asked him to stay and you bring him back anyway
And I know you’re not trying to break my heart
But you’re doing a bang up job
And I told you that I’m not trying to lose your trust
But at least I’m failing upwards