There was a time when I believed in myself
But those days are over, I'm overwhelmed
No reason to fight for the world I couldn't care less
If I'm alive or if I'm dead
I'm a lighthouse in the ocean with all the boats burnt out
I'm an amaryllis wilting in the middle of a drought
I'm a statue in a mausoleum, name engraved in silt
I'm a hopeless romantic, that's the way that I was built
Remember all the times we shared?
Well, I hope that it was worth it, every pleasure, every pain
If there's a God out there somewhere
Well, I hope he can restore me to the man I was before I lost my way
I'm a flame that's all but faded
Feels like the walls are caving in
I was dirty and pissed over words, so I quit
I couldn't absolve all of my sins
Now there's a lighthouse built before me
Showing me everything I wanna believe
But I'm a criminal, too stressed, I feel subliminal
Just tryna make it through the goddamn day
I pray you found a way back to solid ground
Remember all the times we shared?
Well, I hope that it was worth it, every pleasure, every pain
If there's a God out there somewhere
Well, I hope he can restore me to the man I was before I lost my way
I get this off of my chest
I've been waiting for a sign
'Cause I'm giving up, giving up slowly
I ain't got no peace of mind
Numb on the outside, I'm looking in
When you're giving up, giving up slowly
There's no way to win
There was a time when I believed that the world
Was ready to be saved
Well, I was wrong
If you read this a thousand years from now
This song is a gift to the mislead