[Chorus]
I'm having the time of my life right now
I don't even care if I die right now
Smile on my face but I could cry right now
Why is suicide on my mind right now?
[Verse 1]
But I miss taking drugs, I'm not gonna lie
I miss missing calls and spending my whole day inside
Nothing's ever changed, except that I could feel
All the pain I hold in, I'm not strong enough to deal
I hide myself behind Chanel
Even I can tell that I'm not well
Months gone by, I ain't checked the mail
Mom tried to call and check my health
R.I.P. to Mac, I think I know how you felt
I need to be careful, hope I learn it myself
[Pre-Chorus]
I'm caught in a vibe tonight
I could use my way out of my life tonight
Pour me up a four, make me feel alright
I just wanna vibe and vibe and vibe tonight
[Chorus]
I'm having the time of my life right now
I don't even care if I die right now
Smile on my face but I could cry right now
Why is suicide on my mind right now?
[Verse 2]
Yeah, I ran up a tab, I got the bag
I'm driving fast, never look back
Fuck all the past, I want the check
Tonight I might die but I'm still smiling back
I got the pack, look to the sky
See all the money, drop tears in they eyes
Thought of your face gon' make me cry
See every word and I see all my life
I see the signs, I'm on the path
But I still feel like it's literal mines
Always say sorry a couple of times
Always apologize over a rhyme
Always acknowledge that I'm doing fine
I wish you could see that I feel like I'm dying
Sorry if you think that I wasted your time
Sorry if you think that I wasted your time
[Pre-Chorus]
I'm caught in a vibe tonight
I could use my way out of my life tonight
Pour me up a four, make me feel alright
I just wanna vibe and vibe and vibe tonight
[Chorus]
I'm having the time of my life right now
I don't even care if I die right now
Smile on my face but I could cry right now
Why is suicide on my mind right now?
[Outro]
Why is suicide on my mind right now?
I'm having the time of my life right now
Why is suicide on my mind right now?