Yo, it's your boy Ramz
Currently speaking in India right now
Some of you may know
I'm currently going through mental health problems
As a young black boy it was, or should I say
it is very tough to come out and tell people that, you know, you're going through those things
Some may look at it as embarrassing or such a scary thing to do, cos you don't know if people will understand what you're actually going through
This must be one of the hardest things
I've ever had to do in my life, and I mean my whole life
When I posted, suicidal on my social platforms, that day I posted it, it wasn't a joke, ya know
I wanted to tell you my life that day and these days before but I've tried to tell you my life and nobody knows but, ya know, I thought it was too late
I thought, I need to make the right choice. I need to get help
And that's just from waking up, lookin in the mir-looking in the mirror, every single day and thinking "am I normal? "
until one day, I tell myself "I'm not normal, right now. "
So I need help. I know there's friends and family
Out there that don't want to see me lying in a coffin, ya know. Of course there is
But I thought about it, "who would care? "
I asked myself every day "are these people gonna care? "
"are these people gonna... even miss me. "
"Is it gunna be like, what, two, three months and everyone just forgets about me? So what's the point?
I might as well do it. " And then it hit me and I said to myself
"ya know I won't be fair on those people that will never be able to wake up and not forget about me, ya know? "
So I have to stay until my last day
It's only right. We all go through problems, ya know, but with God, friends and family and the right help, you can make it out of those problems. So, before it's too late, make the right choice, ya know? Make the right choice