My most considered, like, "successful" moment of my life
was the worst-the most depressed I've ever been
Literally feeling like I'd probably be happier i
f I was just dead. I got a number one on Billboard
my song is massive right now
like I may never have a song this big again, my tour
I think every date sold out except one date
So I literally had everything that I had always dreamed of happening, and I felt-I didn't feel happy at all
And so I think what happened was I spiraled really bad
'cause I was like
"I'm here, and if this is it, there's gotta be more for me
'cause if this is it, like
it's not gonna work. "