"Growing Sideways" lyrics Noah Kahan Lyrics "Growing Sideways"
So I took my medication
And I poured my trauma out
On some sad-eyed middle aged man's
Over-priced new leather couch
And we argued about Jesus
Finally found some middle ground
I said I'm cured
And I've divvied up my anger
Into thirty separate parts
Keep the bad shit in my liver
And the rest around my heart
And I'm still angry at my parents
For what their parents did to them
But it's a start
But I ignore things
And I move sideways
'Till I forget what
I felt in the first place
At the end of the day
I know there are worse ways
To stay alive
'Cause everyone's growing
And everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive
I guess I'll drive
So I forgot my medication
Fell into a manic high
Spent my savings at a Lulu
Now I'm suffering in style
Why is pain so damn impatient
Ain't like it's got a place to be
Keeps rushing me
But I ignore things
And I move sideways
'Till I forget what
I felt in the first place
At the end of the day
I know there are worse ways
To stay alive
'Cause everyone's growing
And everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive
And if all my life was wasted
I don't mind I'll watch it go
It's better to die numb than feel at all
Oh, if all my time was wasted
I don't mind I'll watch it go
It's better to die numb than feel at all
So I ignore things
And I move sideways
'Till I forget what
I felt in the first place
At the end of the day
I know there are worse ways
To stay alive
'Cause everyone's growing
And everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive
I guess I'll drive