I think I'm starting to figure out my life
Because the past two years have come and gone so fast
I've lost my mind. (well, I guess)
That I don't have time to change my ways
In one fucking day, repeating situations in my head
(what could have I done different?)
But goddamn the day this long life gets the best of me
The medication in my system blindly moves me on
I'll look towards a time when I tell myself
I'm just fine. I'll finally find the time to clear my mind
(and piece together what is mine)
I think I want to start again
Shove a knife in my heart
(bleed me out) I want to feel my innocence
Reborn in me through the honesty
Of treating everyone I love like a human being
(to spare their feelings)
I want to feel like a human being
But goddamn the day this long life gets the best of me
The medication in my system blindly moves me on
I'll look towards a time when I tell myself
I'm just fine. I'll finally find the time to clear my mind
(and piece together what is mine) make me. hate me