[Chorus: Ajax the Lesser]
I got a lot of issues, and all of them with you
If I’m being real I just miss you
Barely know your name, you hardly know mine too
Really hope that this ain’t all that you could do
If I could go back maybe I would
But probably not. just knowing where I am
And I became this man because of what you did
But let’s just fix what we can
[Verse 1: Ajax the Lesser]
Your empty space
Is what I chose chase
Speak what you wouldn’t say
I win the games that you wouldn’t play
In everything you aren’t I am
And your own hate for your father couldn’t take you far as mine can
Used to be fueled by the unknown
Killed my own dreams to sit up on your empty throne
I put a lot of weight on your presence
And in your absence you put your weight in presents
And by the end of this sentence
I hope you catch a sentence
If you behind the bars you deserve
Maybe then you’d understand the loneliness that I learned
Love and hate go hand in hand but in dominance they take turns
And I don’t know which is ruling right now but I hope that it earned
Its rightful place in my mind and my psyche
The apple ain’t dropped yet but its distance ain’t likely
As far as like it to be
But I hope with you they don’t liken to me
But that might happen to be what happens indeed
‘cause
[Chorus: Ajax the Lesser]
I got a lot of issues, and all of them with you
If I’m being real I just miss you
Barely know your name, you hardly know mine too
Really hope that this ain’t all that you could do
If I could go back maybe I would
But probably not. just knowing where I am
And I became this man because of what you did
But let’s just fix what we can
[Verse 2: Ajax the Lesser]
I'm shouting out oh my lord
Who i become
But fathers don’t help out brothers i need a nun
We need twice the number of mothers for one son
Otherwise we’ll have a black kingless kingdom come
That rises with the moon and sets with the sun
Which is to say our reign is over ‘fore its begun
And gets to its prime point right when its done
Our lime light ain’t timed right the space for us is none
And I don’t know if id pick up if you called, I won’t
I wished i was you feet tall, daddy I don’t
I lie about your place in my life to my friends
Couldn’t care less if you showed up in a coupe
Or benz
Or maybe two
Or like 10
In the end
It’s all good
Used to think if could change it all then I probably should
And I would be your favorite
And I would be the one you loved
I would be the one that you thought to put your work up above
Coming in second is a pain I never had the joy to feel
Ain’t even have honor to be crushed under ya heel
You cut me and you’d think that I would heal
I never healed, I never heal, I still ain’t heal
Haven’t seen ya face or heard your voice in years
Words can't handle what I think or what I speak in tears
A language I forgot so long ago, I can’t speak among my peers
And now at 21, I ain’t cheerful I’m full of cheers
[Chorus: Ajax the Lesser]
I got a lot of issues, and all of them with you
If I’m being real I just miss you
Barely know your name, you hardly know mine too
Really hope that this ain’t all that you could do
If I could go back maybe I would
But probably not. just knowing where I am
And I became this man because of what you did
But let’s just fix what we can