Video Do I Have Am I At Fault de The Alchemist 2025 Hip Hop Lyrics

The Alchemist - Do I Have Am I At Fault Lyrics

[Verse 1]
Think I need therapy, forgotten so many memories, symptom 'o childhood trauma
Wisdom come from clarity, what I lack is memory, written pardons 'o good drama
Tryna remember 'n go back to those days 'o sensory, now desensitized, still endeavor
Into cold 'n close ways 'o a child, so show me da tracks 'o incentivized wild, while, will trial
Misrecognized the strays we were, stranded hoping to reap what we ain't sow
Had homes, we just go back lone, banded totting weed 'n weeped but we ain't low
Never seen our dads, black kids who sanded 'n bad, kind 'o sad but need faint 'n flat
Lives centеr 'round power 'n tits, raised spirits through hours 'o lyrics, greed paint our flow
Bits 'o blazed linеs shine wit' prayers, shower cares 'n whereabouts down with layers
There we spout 'n douse the house in droughts 'o street life we meet in strife
Outside we ride, so calm 'n pride, got palm on the side, 'o da car at just thirteen
Blurting the hurting ain't too pristine, my homies laughed in your face 'o glim, hardened by blocks 'o men
Heart bend to shots to them, supreme phonies who rapped 'n penned, laced they verses
Charged the churches, barged inside your mind 'n hurt it, find 'n blurt shit
Hearses, arrive when a brother die, a friend of yours since nine, this ain't right

[Chorus]
What do I have, is my trauma that bad
What is it dad, is my mama down bad
What do I have, is this drama my path
What is it moms, is my pops out for dust
What do I have, what do I have
What do I possess, what is it I have

[Verse 2]
My nigga had been shot, caught outta his block, trigger squeezed out a lock
Locked him down to the ground, what a tragedy, unease brought insanity
Agony on who was next, agonizing thoughts got us stressed, gravity 'o our actions 'fessed
Yet to confess, rest, test 'o sacrificing trust from your homes, seeking sanity sent factions to debt
Obliques leaking bleak, reeking reaps, bodies sleep, on these streets, vanity peaks
Lorries 'o treats, treat them as sweets, now we was scared as sheet, scarred by all this shit
Now we cause cars crashes, bared the fear 'o ten thousands passions, hounding fractions
Pounding heartbeats was common practice, how thee flaws 'o stars rack this, dear to lacking
Frightened by compassion, actually confessing, enlightened by discretions
He told me wit' aggression, sold to it with tension, questioning him during his confession
Seemed to be curing his mental stressing, once he was done with his sentimental expressing
He deemed it his time to leave this depression, seen him disengage from this dimension
[Chorus]
What do I have, is my trauma that bad
What is it dad, is my mama down bad
What do I have, is this drama my path
What is it moms, is my pops out for dust
What do I have, what do I have
What do I possess, what is it I have

[Bridge]
Is it this, is it that, is it tit, is it tat, what's the fact, forgetting everything a lack
Wit wit' everything on track, but what's it that without a back-

[Outro]
What's the worst part about this is, I still don't remember anything