Eliot, I knew why you did what you did to what you had
had hale;
to take off your shirt and leave it inside out for everyone to see your insides
to illuminate your secrets so your beau can eat away its fat linings
and for the world to wish it had witnessed it all happen
it’s all so tiring
trying to keep your real love hidden
for they’d want us dead if they ever found out
like predatory wasps - they’d be out to get us
and you’d think I would’ve liked the recklessness of it all
though I knew my time’s timelessnеss would catch us because I could nevеr let anything so beautifully tragic stay mortal
some secrets are meant to be secrets forever
those lies that you kept were meant to keep you in heaven
but you can’t let go with them still in your pocket
you need to lean on the door that never opens
as it might seem locked
though one push
and you’re out in a rose garden
truly free
from what kept you captive
but we both know
if I’m ever too free they’ll find out what I could never reveal
yet what is it to happen to heaven
if they ever find do
n̶o̶t̶h̶i̶n̶g̶